24.10.06
and so i blog, again.
a really silly post. because i challenged 2 other ppl on msn so, to see who can blog about the lesser than less things in our life. they are blogging simultaneously as i write but i'm sure i'd beat them!! and so this is it ;p
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2:27 PM
my faithful earrings disappointed me today. they were a devoted pair, having accompanied me all the way since the day i pierced my ears 5 mnths back in singapore (except on the day of the ball) right up till now, even in the shower and when i slept, until one side decided it was time to depart from my ear and is now in hiding. i dun even noe when it dropped off, and hence have no idea where to start looking. and yes. you'd probably say its time i changed those earrings, and its probably a sign to take out the earrings my ecg gave me, that i've been meaning to wear but have been just too lazy. but no!!! those earrings were simple and hardy and long-lasting!! boo. they werent cheap too, because they were the sterile non-tarnishable pair used to pierce the initial hole. grrr, i need some real scolding to make me feel better :(
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1:48 PM
23.10.06
when people fool around.
this is ancient, but is now up by request :) not to mention, it does bring back fine memories. so yes, this one's dedicated to you, bro! especially after that heartwarming talk yesterday! one fine post-prom day, xin yi was minding her own business, taking some momento snapshots in her room when a finger emerged out of nowhere, and.. POKE!
grr, i'm not letting you off! pokes YOU back :)
GASP. oh no, did something go terribly wrong?!
pouts. yeah i think it did.
in true russell peters fashion :)
(trembles) are.. you.. hhis.. ggh.. ghost?
ey, dun take already la. we both look damn unglam and retarded!!!
but for final laughs (since i'm already going to get slaughtered for all this anw), this is what i found on my desk one afternoon. my brother's doodles!!! (no i dun think he was practicing drafting a loveletter ;p i drew the 2 interlocking hearts and.. i think he got bored at the com sometime :) oh and yes alvin, that was YOUR newsletter underneath the notepad!)
ps. i'm sure the above did bring about certain tummy tickling :) so yes bro, we should do a part 2 when i get back!! and this time, we'd do even better!! :))
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6:15 PM
18.10.06
the lone walk home from school today..
.. was very much delightful. i remember being plugged in, strolling along with a bounce in my steps - lightfooted and lighthearted. i remember feeling like i was embracing life, at that very moment. what i could not figure though, was why. 
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8:39 PM
15.10.06
ronan keating's i hope you dance.
I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath forgranted
God forbid love ever leaves you empty handed
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
Loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance (time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance (rolling us along)
I hope you dance (tell me who wants to look back on the years and wonder)
I hope you dance (where those years have gone)
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance (time is wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance (rolling us along)
I hope you dance (tell me who wants to look back on the years and wonder)
I hope you dance (where those years have gone)
I hope you dance
I hope you're dancing
I hope you're dancing
I pray you're dancing
I hope you dance
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9:08 PM
12.10.06
i can only imagine.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3LUc78vbDk
do go view it!! :)
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6:54 PM
11.10.06
a very narcissistic post.
[post-ball]
i warned you!!
hmms i think i look quite gd with curls. some consideration for a new look (i think i've had my hair worn straight this way for... eternity). what say u guys?? :) ps. da gal is not coldplaying anymore (tho that word does hav a rather catchy ring to it ;p). sun yan zi is more... inspiring (and yes, she's from rgs wahahha)!!! i particularly like the chorus of the song that's playing..
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8:57 PM
7.10.06
2 days of awesome delight.
5th october. my bdae. got ambushed in the library where my dearest frens mimed a birthday song for me!!! haha it was so cute, shld have taken a vid of them carrying out the actions!! and yes, this was a day of firsts because 1. i've never had such a QUIET birthday ;p
2. i've never gotten a mooncake for a birthday cake
3. i've never cut a mooncake into 16 really teeny pieces b4
4. i've never gotten fairy wings, a wand and a tiara PLUS a lego ambulance b4!! i feel like such a kid.
and despite all the hushhush gg on around me way b4hand, making it look pretty suspicious to me, it was definitely a surprise!!! thanks goes out to all the wonderful ppl who played a part, and mainly to ethan for the planning, it was definitely memorable! but b4 u guys are mistaken, i'm not such a mugger that my bdae had to be held in the library!! and i know what this sounds like, but REALLY!! ;p
celebrations did not end there. had SAM meeting after that episode, and the SAM peeps had a cake all ready for me too!! haha how sweet. a nice end to the rather long meeting :)
and celebrations STILL did not end there :) went to shang yue beside the lake at like 2plus after chatting on skype and also on the phone wif my frens back in singapore!! to the east coast gang, i really had such a great time catching up wif u guys. but of course, we'd do so more often when i'm back, promise!! anw, that aside, the time by the lake was also splendid. lay on my back just staring at the stars and the bright round pretty moon, running the whole day's events through my mind again. afterall, zhong qiu jie is a time to appreciate our loved ones. how apt then, for it to fall after the day which i felt so thankful and blessed for :) and i also must thank the guys for making that night feel so much like home, what with the tea candles that made up the 2 chinese characters yue liang, paper lanterns, mooncakes and sparklers. i almost din want to go back to my room to slp apart from the fact that i was frozen cold :) haha. not just freezing, but frozen!!
so once again, thanks to all the ppl who made my day in one way or another. the surprises, presents, wellwishes, smses, tags, everything!! this definitely includes my beloved frens in singapore!!
aaahh, life is beautiful :)
ps. mum, dad! thanks for this day 20 yrs ago when u guys brought me into the world. the past 20 yrs have been spectacular! and hl, thanks for ur msg!! nothing could be sweeter than a bro saying his sis is the greatest and the best one could ever have!! :) :)
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6:04 PM
LEGENDARY.
now remember i said there were 2 consecutive delightful days? well, so then came the 6th of october. the medicine ball 06. a brainchild had been borne quite some time ago, and the sweet guys of the singapore monash meddies arrived at our doorsteps in a spanking white limo, no less!!
of corsages and wands.
all the girls in their pretty dresses!
the 3 sisters!!
mwahs. i jus loooove da gal!! i bet if i said that we rocked the hse, mel would just go.. TOTALLY!! ;p
found this pic amusing. and no, mel is not drunk. kel is jus getting his just desserts. wahhahaa.
the last jiemei :)
everyone in!!
in the limo going back home after the afterparty.
everything was just splendid, apart from the night ending too early! a big THANKEW goes out to the JEMs (jeff, ethan and mingjian) + kerf for organising the day and going so out of the way to get the little extra things that made it all the more special. not to mention compiling the pscyhe-up cd too!! that was a major hype for the journey to the ball!! 'shot to the heart, and you're to blame. baby, you give love a bad name...' woot. i extremely heart u guys!!
now what a night.
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5:31 PM
2.10.06
the bible. greatest literary piece ever written.
the topic for the day was eve, from the devotional material women of the bible. i've never explored eve's character and role in such depth previously.
what struck me most was the fact that everything had a design. yes, life is not random. it never was, never is, and never will be. people who choose to think otherwise might think they have it better because they would think it reduces the amount of self-blame, and it allows for them to dwell in self-pity. but truly, believing in such haphazardness would only serve to de-beautify and de-mystify all that is around us (and we would just be wanderers accepting and, more importantly, NOT LEARNING FROM all that is around us).
why would it, you say? cant there be beauty in haphazardness? i mean, look at those 'art works' of splashed creations. i say, look closely. and you'll notice, in all great works there is order even in the haphazardness; there is always a design, however obscure; there is INTENT.
have you then, ever wondered why God planted THE tree? seems like such a planned trap, doesnt it, especially since God knows everything and thus he knew that Man would sin. imagine how great it would be, if there wasnt that tree and we were all living in paradise right now!!! wow, life would be PERFECTO. but no, think twice. actually it wouldnt be great. where then, would there be free will, would there be freedom of choice? God wants us to love Him, God created us to love Him, but if there were no choice (ie. to love and obey and stay away from the tree versus to turn away and disobey His words and eat from the tree), would our actions and devotion to Him really be called love? you cant tell how great someone's love for you is when everything is smooth-sailing; it is only through trials and temptations when love is tried and tested, that the greatest of love is exhibited. and as i've always said, love is a choice. when one takes away that choice, there can no longer be love.
and then we move on, to the creation and purpose of eve. all you women and men, listen out! eve was created out of adams rib. not from his head, to rule over him; not from his feet, to be trampled over by him; but from his side, to be level with him and a companion to him, to be always under the care of his arms, and to be always close to his heart. note that in creation, God's works grew more and more intricate - from bees and beetles, to animals, and then to Man. could there then be any doubt that eve was God's final touch, the crescendo, the final, astonishing work of God? she wasnt an afterthought. man is incomplete without her (ego as this may sound due to my gender, and possibly inviting disapproving stares from all the single men out there who do not believe this fact), that much is true. in fact, when God created eve, He called her an ezer kenegdo, which means 'lifesaver' and 'counterpart'.
due to sin though, a curse was placed on eve. 'your desire shall be for your husband, and he shall rule over you.' gen 3:16 juxtapose this with gen 4:7 '..sin lies at the door. and its desire is for you, but you shall rule over it.' it is no wonder why many women struggle with power-balance, for we will always experience this contradiction.
next comes the rationalising of sin. the serpent twisted the facts, and eve soon lost track of the commandment and was led to believe that the serpent's words were true. she thought it would be okay. this relates to us too. clearly, we are all flawed, never perfect. but sometimes, we can do better. let's be reminded never to rationalize sin, telling ourselves its okay just because everyone is doing it. that doesnt make it okay, and it doesnt make it less of a sin. God is a constant, never changing, and His word doesnt either. that means the definition of sin would be the same be it past, present or future too.
with sin comes confession, a very strong and important theme. when God asked about the fruit, adam pushed the blame to eve, while eve pushed the blame to the serpent. neither confessed. and though God did not reprimand them (in fact, He said nothing and i believe that that actually is the greatest shot to the heart especially when you're in the position where you knew you did something wrong), i believe He was hurting dearly inside. i guess we'd all experience this when we become parents next time. we'd not give a care what happened as long as our child has confessed, for then we can pick him up in our arms and whisper to him that it's okay.
nevertheless, God being ever gracious, immediately set about to clothing them right after He had delivered His judgement. this act, was both practical and thoughtful. in fact throughout Scripture, God's grace is often most beautifully evident within His judgements. when the world was so corrupt that He had to destroy it, God saved Noah and his family and even created a rainbow as a sign of His promise. thus personally, i feel it's truly amazing how when we're at our lowest, on our knees before God's judgement, His grace is still at work. we should all never forget that.
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8:01 PM