16.8.05
thoughts.
i've decided that i want to insert more thought into my posts. instead of blatantly recounting the events that take place in my life. afterall, its the thinking process thats most important. its the interest in this thinking process that makes me want to record my life down. yeps.
authority. rachel (goh) mentioned this word on fri at cell. cos we were supposed to state something that matters to us. now God has the greatest authority, but i realised i do want to have authority too. but not the kind of authority she wants, that comes with a post or a position. that kind of authority fades once u're no longer in the position of power. it is just so temporal. lets say u're a prefect in pri sch. do you think ppl in ur sec sch would actually care? no. everyone starts off equal again. as much as we dun wanna believe so.
i want to have a subtle kind of authority with whomever i know. where whatever i say or do they would value greatly. it affects them, it controls and directs their lives - for the better. such that i'm able to impact their lives in a positive manner. i also dunno how to put it. but i wanna be the kind of person whom ppl can look up to, whom ppl ask guidance from, whether i have a position or not. i'm sure all of u ppl out there would be able to tell immediately who such ppl are. cos despite our individualistic nature, we do instinctively search for people whom we can look to for advice, as long as we're keen on self-improvement. another good thing about this kind of authority is that whatever one suggests (even as a member, not a leader) eg. in a discussion, will be considered greatly. i think i'm already kinda achieving this. like ppl often take up my idea. maybe cos its logical or creative, but i want to think that its more so cos i can convince ppl that i can make it work. now THATS authority. ps. dictionary.com definitions for authority:
1. the power to enforce laws, exact obedience, command, determine, or judge. 2. power to influence or persuade resulting from knowledge or experience.
3. confidence derived from experience or practice; firm self-assurance.
by my definition, no. 1 is void.
i fluttered by;
8:56 PM
