31.10.05
lets see what would happen.
i wondered how a post would feel like if i were at blogger.com the whole day with just about time to type anything that sprung into my mind. and so here it is. (this is just about as disconnected as any post could get) yay, another deal clinched.
listening to dance inside by the all-american rejects. ooh i like the intro. the background tune. n the drumbeat giving the suspended feeling. really catchy. lyrics wise.. hmmms. provocative. i usually like songs b4 i noe the lyrics. then when i do find out the lyrics, it either gets better or worse from there. just like everything else.
dad da bao-ed lunch for me. guo tiao yong tao foo dry. (yeps if u noe me i dun eat yellow noodles EXCEPT when its hokkien mee or wontan mian or duck mian for that matter) mmmm there really is a difference between the lunch da bao-ed by ur dad n ur colleagues. so much more love.. n filled with all the things i really like.
jus typed a really lengthy email to my frens. shld i post it here? nothing private anw.
subject: RE: drifting aimlessly in a deep blue sea
zhen ur title is like sooooo off it doesnt explain the contents of ur mail at all.. but anw i guess tts what u're feeling right now n no one did say explicitly that what u put in the subject title had to reflect the contents of the mail so i shant fault that. i guess mine would be 'real hard decisions' if i were to change the title. yeah. i dun even noe where to begin to start explaining. but zhen noes abit. u guys wanna noe can start probing her. but everythings so blurry (oh tts a song btw. a nice one in fact) now. guess mayb when things get abit clearer i'll share more wif ya guys. one thing i learnt tho. bliss usually comes with much emotional turmoil.
lol n u noe what. i foresee that e plan of visiting me when i get to know more lobangs BESIDES MELBOURNE is never going to work. because like u in nus, i'll be stuck at the hostel in monash with as little life as u have now la. no offense haha. but its the bitter hard truth. haha. and i dun rmb there being a trip to uk. hahahahah. ok i think i do. but that was when yilin was supposed to bring us around? now all she can do is bring us around nus. ok not even us. ME. n no. i dun wanna visit nus. but i do wanna visit U GUYS. (awww) mwahs.
haha u noe what. i think my mails quite random and full of impulse. the thing is i'm actually aware of it but i jus cant stop myself from typing all that. xin yi's changing. i noe that too. i jus cant stop it. and i havent even gone overseas! haha. i've been trying to rationalise it. mayb this is what a change in lifestyle does to ppl. esp when i've been studying for like what.. 12 yrs (we all have) and all of a sudden i dun have anything to study! not only that. last time when i wasnt studying i was mainly at home or at someone elses hse. (mainly zhens?) but yeah it was always a house. a home. now apart from working 5.5 days a wk i seem to be going out every other night. mayb its a phase. ppl wanna meet me for the last few times. but why then dun i get to meet ppl i really wanna meet?! *A VERY BIG HINT THERE =)
but mayb i havent changed deep inside. hopefully i will still b able to hit the bks when i need to. been trying to self improve by learning things like adobe photoshop n reading self help photography bks but i wonder when i can put it to use -coughs- which is why we need to go on a holiday together, haha further proves zhen's pt. i seem to be reading random articles on the net more frequently too. quite insightful, esp this one bout female circumcision. ouch. din noe such stuff still happens. yeah if u're interested i can give u e link. dun hav it now tho. n i jus wanted to shoot it off my head that i think u guys would be too bz anw. haha but i thought twice. but then it still came out. see. IMPULSE. haha.
anw zhen. u still have time to keep a hamster?! in ur hostel?! like dun u already have not enough time for urself n ur frens n family? keep me instead la. i dun care if i get caged up in ur hostel. at least i get to interact wif u everytime u come back. u can even bring me around. haha. oh n i get ur care n attention n devotion too. seems like a gd deal to me =) PLUS. u're worse than me la. u blurt out things that will NEVER happen. like me keeping a pup in australia. i think i'll have trouble taking care of myself alone. what more a pup which i have to toilet train n stuff! not to mention i presume hostels have this policy against pets.
anw.. SO WHEN ARE WE GOING TO GO OUT?! i dun really trust yilin's organisational skills leh. esp since she played us out the last outing!! haha. can u see i'm using reverse psychology? can u can u? k la yilin. u dun need me to resort to such tactics right. u CAN organise a decent outing RIGHT? hahahhaha. i wonder how much reverse psychology that did. but knowing her, i'd say she didnt care at all.
oh well. but anw i do wanna spend time wif u guys really soon. even jus a quiet stayover at someone's hse will do very well. rmb munching snacks over rented vcds and playing stupid board games n majong n jus simply chatting about anything and everything in our lives till we realise the suns rays are dawning on us again? i miss that ALOTTT. like alot alot.
love lots, a reminiscing xinyi
oh n its the last day of the month. so i just got my pay!!! din realise i actually worked for 2 wks already. time flies. and will continue to i guess.
urgh you'an u are super daoing me everytime online!! (ok la not really everytime. just 2 times. in 2 consecutive days) then u msg me to apologise. then i call u n u dun pick up! urgh then u shld have not msged in the 1st place. i cant count the no. of misses we've had on my fingers already. n actually i dun really think its a big deal. its jus that u've set THAT standard for urself already in the 1st place.
villa of mysteries is going to be nice. i can sense it. the storyline caught me right from chapter one. yeah i'm not slacking that much at work la. i merely blogged and read one chapter of my storybk. (AND typed that lengthy letter) oh well. my colleague is playing yahoo majong at her desk. she plays it everyday! i'm amazed that she's not sian.
ok its almost time to get off work. this marks the end of my post.
OR NOT.
dad's not in the office!! usually even if he isnt he comes back to settle some stuff n we go home together. today he forgot bout me. he jus said so on the line wif me. sobs. looks like i gotta get home myself. from this ulu place. grrr.
i fluttered by;
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