1.1.06
sometimes my life is so messed up.
there's been an undercurrent of unhappy thoughts
despite how cheerful and happy-go-lucky i might appear
and i'm usually not pessimistic
i dunno whats wrong with me
someone's mean to me
i dun even know if the person's knows it
my world is falling apart
i usually do not blog so incoherently
she says the devil's living inside of me
is it really?
i bathe in salt in the privacy of my toilet
despite willing myself not to
i'm in a state of denial about everything
how long is this going to last?
does anybody know what i'm going through?
i know the obvious answer
but what if things are so bad
you cant feel Him anymore
this is just so not the right way to start the new yr
i want the happy carefree me back
i fluttered by;
10:00 PM
