6.9.06
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my mid-sems have passed. i did put in a little more effort for this paper so i hope i do continue to improve. although, i can tell i'm up against resistance. the proffs who set the exam were determined to up the standard. the time allocated to us was shorter than previously, and yet there were more questions. was kinda glad that i got all the 'intuitive' questions (the MSE questions that din need studying for) right though.
after the mid-sems i took a stint at footy (australian football) but heh i played rather demurely la. had SAM's AGM after and i din wanna get real sweaty. moreover, the guys allow us gals to throw the ball :) at the AGM, ran for exco and got the position of editorial (expectedly, granted my interest and expertise in this area). am looking forward to the new term with the team! hopefully there'd be great fun, strong bonds, and great achievements. then played badminton with trs, jas, daryl, kerf n vivek and ACTUALLY got a move labelled after me! now everyone who smashes right into the net with the shuttlecock nicely implanted into one of the holes is known to be 'doing a xin yi', affectionately coined by trs. gross, but yet extremely amusing :) jas n i rushed back for the richardson hall's dine-in. which was a free 3 course meal to the theme of 'a wedding ceremony'. quite cool cos we all had to dress up and there was a mock wedding that actually took place. the priest cracked me up with his 'improvised' vows, as did the groom with his speech!
'..you shall be happily married till death do you part (whispers) or file a divorce..'
the brothers. funky, low-budget attire :)
the guys cracking me up again. 
after that really eventful day of exam and activities though, i was extremely moody on thursday. i even sat by the lake and just stared and let my thoughts wander, something i have never done before and have chided kelvin for doing so (on a side note, circumstances are different. i think he goes there at night, where its hard to look around and admire the beauty in the simplicity of nature). anyhow, i wondered if my depressed mood was because of a singular event, but i firgured that it was probably due to an accumulation of events. was probably partly due to post-exam slump too, as opposed to post-exam euphoria. but yes, i'm glad that after the moment of reflection and a heartfelt talk, i am back to being the sunshine girl that i am.
now, i think it would take a great deal to bring me down :)
except maybe. not feeling 'hot' enough.
-blushes- i mean, not feeling 'hot' enough for christ. at bible study few days ago, josh khoo pointed out several verses, of which i will expound on one which has served as a reminder from time to time. revelations 3:15-16 says God will spit out those who are lukewarm. a great analogy is that a cold drink is useful for the thirsty, a hot one for the cold. in short, the lukewarm are rejected because they are neither here nor there, and cant serve a purpose. this is the danger zone, thinking we are already 'good as christians', not striving to grow closer to God. the worst thing is having so much passion, then later lose it unknowingly because you get so caught up with routine.
guess this applies to any form of love you can give.i remember how i was once so passionate for You. i know i cant expect to be how i used to be 24/7 (it kinda felt like the honeymoon period) but i do hope that my spiritual journey is continuously sparked with those moments. just dont, dont ever, let me backslide till i dun recognise Your face anymore. a few more self explanatory verses: ecclesiastes 10:10, isiah 30:15 to encourage us on our academic journeys. which brings me to my last point. i have decided to start working a little harder for the end of year exam. for myself, for my dad (who so affectionately told me that i do him proud over the phone, for no reason at all, and so i cannot let him down) and family, for the better-ment of mankind.
i fluttered by;
7:35 PM
